I have spent a good amount of my life dealing with friends moving away, fighting, and such - just like anyone else. I know I'm not that old, but somehow I've lived long enough to survive many betrayals from my friends. The next is always worse than the one before, making it look petty and childish. There is someone I am friends with now (we have known each other since we were three), but we had a lot of drama in early elementary school. When she moved away, I had to find many more friends and not be alone. When I thought everything bad was over, my new friends made my days worse. Overall, I'm a pretty happy person, but what they did hurt. I'm pretty sensitive, so it was harder for me than others. The person my friends & i didn't like at the time is (or was) my friend. I now don't like those people at all because they are fake and mean and I am now hanging out with the girl we didn't like. We became friends after realizing a big similarity we both had: we disliked the same people for the same reasons.
Our friendship is pretty flimsy, it has been from the start, and I knew that - but she didn't. But this thing is the most difficult to deal with: she is now dating the guy that I like. I never admitted to liking him, but she seemed to know before I even did. She said that she would never date him and that him and I were practically going out (most people thought we were, literally). The guy I like and I have an interesting history. We started out becoming friends with each other about halfway through the year, and he admitted to having a crush on me. He's the type of guy that likes every female he sees, though. We recently got into a fight, and my friend told me to just ignore him. But I couldn't, because she kept hanging around him. He used to be extra nice to me, but he's been meaner and meaner to me and nicer to my friend.
Then at the dance, he kept hugging her. Then at the end, the very last song, it went to a slow song and they started dancing. She apparently changed her mind about him in the middle of the dance and went off with him. I was really mad at her after the dance, and she could tell (which is what I was really hoping for). I don't like him anymore, in fact, I couldn't really feel much of anything when the dance ended - I just knew I should be angry. But my friend didn't know why I was mad. It was so obvious of why i was mad at her it hurt. What she always does is treat me like crap and then realize how mad I get and she endlessly apologizes. I hope other people don't get as much bad luck with friendships as I do. My better friends say I'm a great person and friend, so why do I feel as if I get the worst friends?
-<3 H
Our friendship is pretty flimsy, it has been from the start, and I knew that - but she didn't. But this thing is the most difficult to deal with: she is now dating the guy that I like. I never admitted to liking him, but she seemed to know before I even did. She said that she would never date him and that him and I were practically going out (most people thought we were, literally). The guy I like and I have an interesting history. We started out becoming friends with each other about halfway through the year, and he admitted to having a crush on me. He's the type of guy that likes every female he sees, though. We recently got into a fight, and my friend told me to just ignore him. But I couldn't, because she kept hanging around him. He used to be extra nice to me, but he's been meaner and meaner to me and nicer to my friend.
Then at the dance, he kept hugging her. Then at the end, the very last song, it went to a slow song and they started dancing. She apparently changed her mind about him in the middle of the dance and went off with him. I was really mad at her after the dance, and she could tell (which is what I was really hoping for). I don't like him anymore, in fact, I couldn't really feel much of anything when the dance ended - I just knew I should be angry. But my friend didn't know why I was mad. It was so obvious of why i was mad at her it hurt. What she always does is treat me like crap and then realize how mad I get and she endlessly apologizes. I hope other people don't get as much bad luck with friendships as I do. My better friends say I'm a great person and friend, so why do I feel as if I get the worst friends?
-<3 H
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